Expression

It's been a while since my last post. Although I made this blog with the intent of expressing my thoughts, I still can't type out how I really feel. I guess it's the wall I built, and it's even hard for myself to break it down. Lately Jessica's problems with Momo have made me realize that I also have a wall that I've never let down except for a select few.

Even right now. Every time I type out what I'm thinking, I backspace it out again. There was a time when I seemed like a completely open person that didn't care what I said or who heard it. But I wasn't actually like that. That happy, loud, obnoxious, reckless person that laughed all the time was just a shell. She didn't want to show how she really felt, so she pretended to be loud and happy. It helped convince her that everything was okay. It was a way for her to forget and run away from reality.

But now I prefer to be silent. Always the good listener. I keep everything to myself. There was a time when I couldn't keep quiet. I just had to tell someone. But now, I just bite my lip and don't say anything. I guess it's because I learned that there's no point in saying anything, since I don't want to hear comforting words or support. That's not going to help the actual situation. Everyone has their own problems. I used to want to be a psychologist, but now that I think about it, deciding against it was a good choice. I'd be listening to other people's problems all day long, trying to help them. I just want to live a carefree life. That's why I want to be a workaholic. That way I can concentrate on work and not think about other things.

hahaha... I just remembered that Jessica and my mom said before that I'm not a girl. haha. I was probably meant to be a guy, but somehow I ended up with a girl's body.

冷笑话

蚯蚓一家这天很无聊，小蚯蚓想了想，把自己切成两段，打羽毛球去了。
蚯蚓妈妈觉得这方法法不错，就把自己切成四段，打麻将去了。
没过一会，蚯蚓爸爸就把自己切成了肉末。
蚯蚓妈妈哭着说："你怎么那么傻，切得那么碎会死的。"
蚯蚓爸爸弱弱地说："突然想踢足球……"